Kadang, gua berpikir.
apa yang membuat gua bertahan sama elu.
apa yang membuat gua selalu memaklumi tingkah laku elu.
gua tau sih sebenernya
kalo lu ga peduli
gua juga tau
kalo lu ga minta gua untuk peduli
tapi entah kenapa, gua selalu aja peduli
blah …
mulai saat ini, mudah-mudahan.
Mudah-mudahan loh ya ..
gua ga terlalu ambil pusing ama lu
mudah-mudahan gua bisa.
cinta cuman bikin sakit hati
gua udah tau itu dari awal
tapi kenapa gua tetap cinta?
This is a little story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.
There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure that Somebody would do it.
Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.
Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody’s job.
Everybody thought that Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn’t do it.
It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could have done.
-unknown
Barusan buka friendster. Udah lama gua ga buka. Sebenernya, gua termasuk orang yg males buka friendster, secara itu website boyot bgt jalannya, uda gitu gua bukan orang yg ngerasa penting berjelajah di friendster. hihi …
Kemaren ini, gua lupa deh baca dimana, gua baca ada orang bilang kalo ukuran ketenaran seseorang BUKAN ditentukan dari jumlah teman yg lu punya di friendster. Hehehee …. setuju banget!
Oh. Tadi gua di kirim pesen ama temen gua. Beberapa orang. Isi pesennya tuh yang forward-an gitu deeeeh. Males bgt ga sih. Kurang kerjaan aja gitu kesannya.. Gua juga sebetulnya paling males ngejabanin pesen begituan. Huhuhu … tapi tadi berhubung gua ga enak ama tu orang, nti dipikirnya gua sombong lagi. Jadi gua forward balik ama dia.
Isi pesennya tuh yg “Kirim ke temen2 lu, dan liat berapa banyak temen lu yg peduli ama lu en ngirim balik”. Idiiih, males banget ga sih. Udah ngabisin pulsa ga penting, uda gitu BT aja kalo ternyata orang yg lu harapin bales malah ga ngebales. Gua sih ga pengen uji iman gitu. Nti malah bikin penyakit. Tapi tadi gua ga enak, kasian takut dianya BT. Hehehe ..jadi gua kirim balik.
Trus ada lagi pesen yg isinya macem “Kirim ke 5 orang. Kalo ga lu bakal keilangan orang yg lu sayang”. Temen gua itu bilang, better safe than sorry. But i was like, “do you really buy that kinda stuff? really??”
So, she send it to 5 people she knew. Including me. damn it! It was like, you throw bad luck to your own best friend. right? I mean, sort of. Tapi gua lagi ga mood, jadi ga gua forward spt yg seharusnya. Malesss … percaya ga percaya kan yg gitu. Lagian, I believe in faith. I believe things already written in the stars. So, you dont have to be worried by those stuff. right?
So anyway, tadi gua belanja di carefour. Ternyata, kalo lu belanja sendirian, lu malah semakin boros ngeluarin duit. Karena saking enjoynya pengen ini itu ga liat kiri kanan lagi. Heheheee… tapi tadi liat gelang lucu euy. Pengen beliiii….
1 missed call
time of call 22:46:59
damn! after what he’s done to me?
I really wanna know what he’s about to say
hmmm…too bad last night i went to sleep a little bit early
i didnt hear my cell phone rang
damn.
Tau ga apa yang bisa bikin gua teringat masa kecil gua?
Tak lain dan tak bukan adalah ketika gua makan kentang goreng dan sosis pake saos tomat ABC. Iya, kentang goreng rumahan, yg digoreng langsung dari kentang asli-bukan olahan. Trus pake saos tomat ABC. Iya, gua ga setua itu, gila. Jaman gua TK, saos ABC udah ada.
Ga tau kenapa, tapi tiap kali gua mengecap saos tomat ABC itu, terbayanglah masa kecil gua. Gua bisa ngeliat (di memori gua), kala gua kecil, pakai seragam coklat-krem (seragam TK gua!!), trus jam istirahat bawa bekal (which is, itu tadi, kentang goreng+sosis. Pake saos tomat ABC), gua ngeliat diri gua lagi menikmati bekal yg gua bawa itu.
Gila ya, memori gua pas moment itu tuh, jelas banget.
Satu lagi deng, ketika gua melewati toko PERSEGI di Jl.Pasirkaliki. Iya, nama tokonya “PERSEGI”.
Gua inget banget, gua minum teh kotak di toko itu. Iya, jaman gua TK, tek kotak juga udah ada. Hehehe …
Gua inget, gua minta dibeliin teh kotak. Tapi nyokap gua ga ngasih karena “kita lagi berhemat,” katanya. Gua ga inget apakah gua nangis karena ga dibeliin (tapi kayaknya ga nangis deh, gua kan anak yang tegar..huhu!!). Tapi yang gua inget, si tante yg jaga tokonya akhirnya memberi teh kotak itu secara gratis. Cihuy!!!!
Tapi yah, jaman sulit tuh. Nyokap gua lagi berhemat. Keuangan lagi ketat. Gua inget, gua minta es krim yg murah aja (es lilin gitu), ga dikasih ama nyokap. Karena “kita lagi berhemat,” katanya.
Kalo dipikir-pikir, hebat banget bonyok gua. Bisa membiayai kehidupan gua dengan baik, kebutuhan vital gua terpenuhi. Apa bisa, gua kayak bonyok gua? Gua, yg selama ini termasuk enak. Dikasih uang cukup. Sekarang, gua ga dikirim duit lagi. Sebetulnya, gua bisa menabung. Seharusnya, gua bisa menyisihkan sebagian salary gua. Tapi gua tetep masih merasa gua ga punya duit. Gua ga bisa nabung. Gua mau ini itu, ga mampu beli. Hehehehee … iya lah, maunya mobil, rumah, en berlian. Mana kebeli. Hahaha!!
Well, intinya sih. Gua cuman mau bilang. Kalo tadi sore gua makan kentang+sosis sama saos tomat ABC. Dan gua tiba-tiba kangen sama masa kecil gua, yg sebetulnya lumayan berat itu. Trus gua inget, gua punya teh kotak di lemari es yang belum abis diminum (kebayang ga lu, gua minum teh kotak ga abis trus gua simpen di lemari es…). Trus gua tadi nelpon nyokap just to say “Hi” yg malah nyokap gua curhat ga berakhir…. hehehe …
Rasanya, masa kecil gua lumayan indah. Berat, tapi indah. Kepolosan gua sewaktu kecil (dan anak-anak lain seumuran jagung muda gitu), ga mengenal ego dan gengsi. Ga kenal sama yang namanya kelas2 ekonomi. Mana kepikir sih, sama gua waktu itu, kalo hidup gua tuh jauh lebih enak drpd sebagian orang. Mana kepikir sih sama gua, kalo gua naik mobil en ngeliat anak pengamen gitu, gua berpikir kalo dia hidupnya susah makanya dia ngamen? Mana kepikir sih sama gua, waktu gua kecil en main ke rumah temen gua (gua masih inget tuh, namanya Christine…hehe), kalo rumahnya dia yang sebesar istana itu tuh, anak orang kaya. Mana kepikir juga sama gua, kalo temen main gua di kompleks tempat gua tinggal itu, yang bapanya cuman seorang buruh bangunan itu, tinggal di rumah tripleks gitu, yang kalo main bareng gua dia tuh demen minta dibonceng naik sepeda keliling kompleks, berasal dari keluarga pas-pasan. Gua inget tuh, waktu itu mendadak gua ga nemu dia en keluarganya di tempat biasa dia tinggal. Yang gua temuin, malah bangunan yang pagarnya baru dicat, yang pas gua cari rumah tripleksnya tuh udah dibongkar gitu.
Gua berpikir kalo semua itu biasa. Kalo Christine tuh, sama kayak gua aja. Kalo anak pengamen itu, sama kayak gua juga. Kalo anak cewek itu (duh, gua lupa namanya!), sama kayak gua. Sempet heran pun, engga. Entah gua yang polos ato bloon yah. hehehehee …..
But anyhow, I consider myself lucky, you know. Gua bisa berada di posisi gua sekarang. Mengingat gua hanya orang biasa. Orang biasa yang punya Seseorang yang luar biasa. Maybe that’s the key. Not maybe, that IS the key. Right? Right. Rock on!
walau hasrat di hati, ingin aku memilikimu
One night, a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky, flashed scene from his life.
For each scene, he noticed 2 sets of footprints in the sand.
One belonged to him and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.
“Lord, you said that once i decided to follow You, You would walk with me all the way. But i have noticed that during the most troublesome-time in my life, there’s only 1 set of footprints. i dont understand, why when i needed You most, You would leave me”.
The Lord replied, “My son, my precious child. I love you. And I would never leave you during your times of trial and suffering. When you see only 1 set of footprints, it was when that i carried you”.
- unknown.
*banging head against the wall*
I have a headache, just from talking to people like her.
I should’ve known. I know I shoudn’t even try.
God. She’s impossible. Not for You, I must say.
For me. She’s impossible, for me.
For You? Oh, none in this world, is impossible.
But how FUN ! Hehehehe …
Thank You for cheering me up 
And I know, at least I’ve tried. Right ? right on.
This morning I wake up with a sigh (in a good way) because I just realize, today is Sunday !!! I dont have to wake up early! Yay !! So I went back to bed, and continue to sleep. Good ! Because it was 6.30 in the morning and the weather is just COLD.
Then, I finally manage to wake up at 8.30 am. Which is, also good. Because I used to wake up after mid day on Sunday. So, it was good. I just dont know why I couldnt make myself sleeping a little bit longer.
After took a bath, watched Oprah and had a cup of coffee, I had an appointment with my best friend who’s just got merried couple months ago. We went with her husband too. We had lunch at Moshi-moshi (which is ALWAYS serve a BIG portion of meal) then we went to the mall looking for a birthday present for her mom.
We decided to buy her a pair of earing from Perlini’s. It’s a good choice. The earing looks good and pricey. Hehehee … But it’s decent. So, it’s okay.
After that, we had coffee over O’lala Cafe. Oh! I ordered this Iced Caramel Latte. Soooooo good!!! It’s on a tall glass and very yummy! After a bunch of laughs and not important talks, we went to this little place where they sell software CDs, pirates–i must say. I bought a CD contains lots of Macromedia’s software that I’m desperatly looking for. HUhuuu .. so worth it. Only 7500 rp. Good bargain.
Then, the church. Afternoon mass is always have this gloomy feeling and, of course … sleepy. Hehehe … but i did manage to stay awake and alert till it finished.
After church, we had dinner. God, my stomach was very much stuffed today.
We had dinner over this little place at Cipaganti. Nice food. Nice people. Nice price.
Then, go home. Watched Gilmore Girls finale of Season one. Install Macromedia. Try it a little bit. Then, go online..!!! yay! Oh, yes. I also need to make a copy of graphics I made last night. Tomorrow the guy who order it needs to see if everything is made just like he wants it.
*deep breath*
Tired. Might went straight to bed after this
